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I’m having one of those days. I am distracted but can’t seem to work out by what. I jump from task to task.
I feel strange. Things need to change but I am not sure what I want or where to start.
I feel really lethargic and a bit down in the dumps. It’s that time of month which doesn’t help.
Tomorrow I start a health kick. I’m trying out a 5 day detox with a juice and healthy dinner plan (from here in case you’re wondering). I sprung into action 2 days ago after Little T asked me to get on the scales (he didn’t even know what they were for) and to my surprise, the few kilos I knew had crept on over the past few months turned out to be 7. It may not seem like much, but when you’re 60 kilos, to put 7 extra on in 4 or 5 months is huge. I knew something was up as many of my clothes wouldn’t fit.
Anyway, I’ll write later about how the detox goes.
This post wasn’t meant to be about my health. It’s more my state of mind. I feel weird. Like I’m at another cross road in life having to make some decisions that will have significant impact on my journey.
Work, lifestyle, hobbies, and habits all up for consideration.
Maybe I need to practice the art of mindfulness to improve my effectiveness? Maybe I need to adopt a more minimalist approach to my possessions? Maybe I need a career change? Maybe I need to take better care of myself?
Perhaps I just need to go back and see my therapist!
It’s almost like I have lost some of my sense of place in the massive changes that 2012 brought.
I live day to day in a tricky personal situation where there are ex-partners and children from each of these involved. There is love and passion like no other but also fear and uncertainty on both sides. We are apart a lot. It gives my nutty head too much time alone to think and wander where it shouldn’t.
What do I want for the year ahead? Health, happiness and love. Don’t we all. How will it look and how will I know if I am there? I have no bloody idea.
Where do I begin? Maybe a vision board? Pinterest my old friend you may be able to help here.
So a little soul searching is now on my to-do-list. Ironic really – adding one more thing when one my main end goals is to cut back.
Wish me luck.
How about you? How you are feeling coming into 2013?
How about you? How you are feeling coming into 2013?
