The second of my Guest Posts this week comes from Caz Makepeace.
For the first time in what feels like months this afternoon, I was able to sit down and do nothing.
And while I enjoyed the five minutes of extra breathing space, there was something I did not like.
Within that moment of not writing a blog post, marketing, teaching, tending to my daughter’s needs, cooking dinner or sticking to a very busy social schedule, I was able to look at myself in the mirror.
And I got a shock.
I looked old and haggard, not old as in over the hill and time to worry, but old as if the vibrancy of my spirit had been sucked away leaving behind only drained, waterless skin, crow’s feet and dark circles.
The hairdresser suggested a new cut, nothing too drastic from my usual, but something to give me an extra kick and finesse.
Did she notice it too?
I could barely concentrate as she babbled on to me about children and friends and phones, mindless chatter that made not a bit of difference to the fact that I suddenly felt much older than I had in years.
I had always felt much younger than my chronological age. But, today represented a different story; a story that speaks of the strain and stress of the past year.
A strain and stress that I can no longer allow to affect my life.
I don’t mind the wrinkles and the gradual aging of my body, as this is what we are destined for, but I do mind the aging of my spirit.
That aging is written widely across my face and hurts me tremendously.
Financial burdens, family stress, health that has been pushed to the bottom of my long lists of priorities, sleepless nights, and the fight to live the life of my dreams has all but stripped the life out of me.
It’s time to reclaim my youth, the youth that can never age or die.
Today I sat down for the first time in months and breathed the first breath of awakening.
The awakening of my spirit that has been left sleeping for far too long.
Caz Makepeace has been living and travelling around the world for 14 years. She now writes about putting the mojo back into your life at Mojito Mother. Come join her fanpage community and follow her on twitter.
